I want to write this today because I believe that sharing feelings and ideas with persons we don't know can make me feel better!
My life is weird , U can see that if you are in my place!
Just look inside this story and you can find out this truth
I am suffering from a pain in my back and my neck for 10 years,i'm totally tired from this pain.my self confidence is decresead because of that.I didn't protect a lot of dreams because of this fear ,fear of the pain and incapability .
I return back into a corner away from people , I discussed in a lower voice, because i am a weak person
In all days , I was searching places to sleep ,to have something to put my back on, I even slept in a toilet ,because i found my self incapable to continue setting or walking in my traineeship
It was a hard moments for me ...this can give you up and let all the world,specially when watching a movie like "into the wild" .When the pain increase, the idea of leaving away come again to my mind ,to a forest ,to another city,to another life!
Just away of studies, of responsabilities and of everything
I lost the meaning of Happiness ,because you can try the feeling of the limiteless pain in your life, this pain start from morning and terminate at night for 10 years.and before that it was another pain
You can see how is this bad ...
and you can even tell me that i'm not a strong man ,you know, a back and a neck pain isn't hard like a cancer or other diseases
You can be alright ! The pain i feel is not too hard ! it's an annoying feeling ,that continue with you and disturb your life without any solution in the future
You can ask me ,it's a simple desease ,you may found a treatement for this
And I will respond you ! my meeting with doctors were a collection of weird ideas!
I tried a lot ,everybody told me nothing and give me a lot of drugs to drink and even to drink by another way, you can understood it ,if you can too smart like my doctors
I met them after a mounth , They ask me . son,is there some improvement in you case ?
I am the only patient who is shy to say No ,I said it with a lower voice , No , a little !
They became angry ,and they told me : you are angry ,this is why your back isn't good ,try to not be angry and relax !
and i return back to home and try to live with my desease another time ,and convict myself that life is good and i can live with this desease whatever the pain is ,but,I fail in the end ,because my continuous state oblige me to give up and restart from 0 , 0 self confidence !
A doctor tell me to do Kinetherapy ,nothing new ,
Another tell me to swim ,nothing new
I discouvred ,that i must go to the gym and run out ,nothing new
And in all situations ,my situation become worse day after day
A doctor ,a female doctor told me to do ARM and Analysis , ARM is such a medical pictures to see precisly what going on in my back !
So , i waited two weeks ,because of what ??
Why waiting ,this your final opportunity to find out the problem origin !?
because ,the pain disappeared ,after 10 years , for the first time ,the pain lost itself
Is my back feelig in danger when seeing that i can resolve the problem ?!you can be happy now for me , but i was waiting the pain to start again to discover this stupid disease that ruined my whole life !but in vain
at this time ,it returned and my story cannot be resolved soon
I'm feeling comfort when sharing this with you ,and you cannot see that my back and my neck and my nervs are all in pain now ! I need to sleep now
Hope the Health for everyone ! THANKS